Episode 20 – Ellen’s turn

After breakfast, we set off to explore around the farm. Ellen’s world seemed to be really huge to me as we walked from paddock to paddock. She chatted away as we walked and pointed to all the different parts of the farm. She told me the front paddock that we had walked through yesterday was…

Finding self

I give to you my physical body, touched sensuously by fingers, feeling the warmth of skin, held tenderly in gentle arms, listening to my racing heart, sharing passion and pleasure, exploring secrets with ecstacy, painting pictures on my flesh, tasting my desire for strength, creating new life with love. I give to you my hopes…

Episode 19 – My new best friend

Over the next year Ellen and I developed into best friends and we did everything together. Although we were both the same size, she was outgoing and talkative where I was shy and quiet. She lived on a farm and once I was allowed to spend the whole weekend with her. I caught the school…

Final goodbye (a letter unsent)

Dear Kyle, It has nearly been six months since you vanished from my life. I wanted to tell you how much you hurt my feelings when you ended our relationship by text message. I think you owed me more respect than that after all we had shared together. You said once, in jest I thought,…

Episode 18 – First night in my new house

I met Mum outside school at the end of the day. ‘Hurry up, Molly,’ she said. ‘We have to meet the truck at our new house.’ She was so anxious to get going that she didn’t even notice that my dress was dirty and smelled like smoke. I climbed into the car and squeezed in…

Impossible dreams

I love to sing and dance around the house, with enthusiastic music turned up loud, making me sparkle, lively and energetic. Feelings of pleasure from morning sunshine bouncing off water, dispelling night’s gloom with the fullness of joy. The end of a long bike ride, a thousand metres of climb from Thredbo to Dead Horse…

Episode 17 – First day at my new school

I started school the next day while Mum and Dad tried to find a house to rent. It was just like starting my first day of kindergarten all over again. I sat there looking at my feet while Mum talked with the school headmaster. He looked like he was a hundred years old and as…