first day of school

panic – final school year
best friends try to help
but I’m in this on my own
that is my truth
along with being seventeen
and all the problems in the world
on my shoulders
I don’t belong here
I have blemishes, nothing
worries like my mind
worst thoughts strike me
when lying in bed
I think I can handle things
that’s what I tell the world
but I really can’t
I try to laugh but fall
flat on my face, splat
feeling sick at the idea
of meeting new people
or studying for exams
or facing up to life
until the bell rings
and class begins